Age: Year 1999
Height: Short enough
Nationality: The Tropical Islands of Eastern Asia
Blood Type: Does this even matter
Who am I?
First of all, I’m an introvert. What kind of introvert am I? I like the thought of socializing, but not exactly the reality of it. I get energized when someone joins me in their affairs and calls me their friend, but I get let down easily when I am nobody to them the next day. It’s easier for my brain to deal with one person than many. I like one on one serious conversations with a private set of people and despise common casual conversations among big groups. Too much socializing and parties are physically harmful to my health and I’m not just exaggerating this. Being with large (and energetic noisy) crowds really tire me out, especially if I cannot relate. I’d rather be alone than feel out of place. I like being alone, but I don’t like feeling lonely. I like being independent, but I also like having someone to lean on. I like doing things by myself, but sometimes two is really better than one.
I’m home-schooled and very bad at handling my time. I try to make notes in my head but I cannot control my go-with-the-flow system. I’m in my room the whole week unless it’s breakfast, lunch, or dinner, time. My ordinary life is pretty boring, but sitting by the window side with the sepia, urban world makes it all beautiful. I know I will miss this carefree life someday…
Art is my passion and the world is full of it. Music is my life and it is how I speak. Writing is my therapy and also my favorite stress.
I used to think that my interest and talents made me who I am or “defined” me. But really, what hasn’t been done under the sun? If I say that, I would be categorized as another artist in the corners trying to gain fame for what I can do.
If I had been stripped of my “definition,” then what will be left of me? Let me tell you: if I lose my ability to draw, sight to see beauty, and ears to hear music, there will be one thing that will always define me. I am a child of God. It’s the very thing about myself that I can boast about because I know He will never be taken away from me.
“Yeah, I notice when people notice me
My exterior is the only way they know it’s me
I’m full of holes and scars, my skin’s marked up
But qualified to light up a world of darkness.”
– Lecrae “Children of the Light.”